However, after three decades into my life, I felt the need to express the conflict between that childhood ideal and the bitter realities of adulthood. Our lives are defined by survival. What do we need, and how do we get it? All of those desires come with just as many opinions about how to obtain them.
Suddenly, we’re much older, and the optimism of childhood becomes washed away by competition, doubt, and struggle. The lack of a natural landscape in my paintings is not coincidental. The figures in my work remind me that I may be small, but I still live in a world that I help build. I want to make sure that I improve it and make it one in which I enjoy living.
A person can feel insignificant, but history reveals that the human race can be both innovative and destructive. Playing with toys and action figures is a way for kids to act out their desires and design their own rules and circumstances. I personally enjoyed playing with Legos, Lincoln Logs, and toy trains. I even loved rearranging the furniture in my sister’s dollhouse. But what happens to those desires later on?